Last night I went to yoga at Marbles Yoga in Lafayette Square. I started going a couple of weeks ago and this was my 4th class so far. I have to say, I am really enjoying taking these classes. I have so much to learn and absorb from the different teachers and I am interested in seeing where this journey takes me. I think what I appreciate the most about yoga class is that the aim is to just be in the moment and do your best without judging yourself or others. Being very competitive is in my nature, and I think I need to just let it go sometimes. I get so hung up on either 1. trying to be better than everyone or 2. getting down on myself because I don’t think I’m good enough. This is why I hate playing team sports like softball, basketball, etc.- I think I suck! At the same time, this is what pushed me to be a better dancer when I was younger.
It’s funny how you create these labels for yourelf- barriers that you think define who you are. I labeled myself as an engineer. I had a passion for fine arts, but I decided that they were not practical to pursue as a career. I now realize that the only limits I had were the ones that I created for myself. I could have done anything, but I made up my mind that I had only a narrow path to follow. I regret not taking the chances that could have led to something truly satisfying for myself. I picked a field that I knew I would excel at- but would I like it? Would I be happy? I never considered that. I never thought critically about the choices I made and the choices others made for me. I wish that I would have had the strong sense of self to stand up for what I was passionate for and pursue it with everything I had- in spite of what others told me was and was not possible. But I didn’t know what I wanted or who I was. It has taken a long time and many experiences for me to gain insight into who I really am and who I could be without any boundaries. I think that is the direction I need to head. I am young, and it is not too late for me to switch gears into a lifestyle that satisfies my soul.
It’s hard to make that leap of faith though… I need to think it through.
It’s funny how you create these labels for yourelf- barriers that you think define who you are. I labeled myself as an engineer. I had a passion for fine arts, but I decided that they were not practical to pursue as a career. I now realize that the only limits I had were the ones that I created for myself. I could have done anything, but I made up my mind that I had only a narrow path to follow. I regret not taking the chances that could have led to something truly satisfying for myself. I picked a field that I knew I would excel at- but would I like it? Would I be happy? I never considered that. I never thought critically about the choices I made and the choices others made for me. I wish that I would have had the strong sense of self to stand up for what I was passionate for and pursue it with everything I had- in spite of what others told me was and was not possible. But I didn’t know what I wanted or who I was. It has taken a long time and many experiences for me to gain insight into who I really am and who I could be without any boundaries. I think that is the direction I need to head. I am young, and it is not too late for me to switch gears into a lifestyle that satisfies my soul.
It’s hard to make that leap of faith though… I need to think it through.
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